I live my life with a strong sense of urgency.

For most hours of the day, I'm focused on something.

Focused on getting work done. Focused on growth. Focused on writing. Focused on running. Focused on some family stuff. Focused on friends. Etc.

Especially in recent months - I've just been working really hard and I'm pretty much "always working" - even on weekends and holidays.

But today was different.

I completed some "big" goals on Friday (yesterday) and it feels like I'm at a new "crossroads" with my products. Because I completed these projects, I'm thinking "what's next"? And I really don't know.

So that feels a bit weird.

Also, with COVID-19 there's not really much to do. So even though "I got all my work done", it felt like there was nothing to do.

It was nice. I haven't felt like this in a really long time.

At first, I "created" work for myself. I'm thinking about new growth channels and how to "take the next big leap". But I don't really know how I'm going to do this.

So I started taking notes from blog posts and listening to some podcasts from founders of companies I'd like to emulate.

But then I realized I was just creating work for myself because I don't know how to not work.

I went on a walk. The streets were empty. Just ambulances, police cars, and Amazon Prime delivery trucks.

My walk had no sense of urgency. I wasn't thinking about the work I needed to do when my walk was over (which I usually do).

I walked into a sunny parking lot and just stood there - with my Bose headphones blasting Big K.R.I.T. - pumping my fists when the songs hit my favorite parts.

In the middle of the parking lot, I was surrounded by huge buildings in the middle of downtown Salt Lake City - but all these buildings are completely empty - I felt like I was in the movie I Am Legend.

It feels like the world has come to a standstill - it's so strange.