Some of these recent days have been harder than in recent memory.

It kind of feels like things are just slowing down for me. In my businesses. I feel like I've lost some of the excitement that I had a couple years ago when starting my own business.

Maybe because it's December (and it's slow), or maybe I'm just too isolated these days.

I want to do something bigger than just have a programming job and go through life.

I want to be somebody. I want to have unique ideas and people to look back and remember me. I want to influence and drive change in the world, and people.

But on harder days, I think about how I could be making lots of money in a corporate job and live in New York and be getting married etc etc.

Am I too late for this? I'm 29 and going to be 30 next year. Do I have time to do all this stuff that I want to do? Build a successful business, make money, build a family, etc etc.

I'm working too much lately and it sometimes feels like I'm not making progress.

Whatever the case, I can't see myself going back to a job. For me, that is throwing in the towel, and would be a big setback. I will do anything to not be there. I will do consulting or sell courses if it came to that.

Cheers.