April 14th, 2020
About 10 days ago, I was in a discouraged state - one of those states where you question a lot of the things that you're doing.

I had some of my first real thoughts of shutting down Pigeon.

Usually, I push those thoughts away - what's the point right? 

But this time, I just decided to run that situation through my head, such as:

  • What that process would look like
  • How would I let people know it was over
  • What would I work on next?
  • Is there anything else I want to work on?

It wasn't a "giving up" moment, but rather a conscious exercise of "what if?".

After running all of the scenarios I started to feel a lot better. The vision went from "I'm doomed" to "here's where I can improve, and how".

The funny thing is that I often have moments like this, where everything feels doomed, but no matter what, it always gets better and I always get over it. In the moment, it feels like I won't get over it. But 100% of the time, I do!

What gets me excited about this is that it basically confirms you can do anything you want to do in life, as long as you don't quit!!

This also reminds me that it's pointless to think about quitting. If I wanted to quit, I would have done it already. I've quit other projects because I wanted to quit them. 

It's pointless to think about quitting because I know, deep down, I literally cannot quit. I can quit for an hour, or a day, or a week, but I can't quit permanently.