May 12th, 2020
If you've been reading my posts lately I've been in a funk.

I chatted with Harry Dry today a bit about the situation.

Maybe I need to do more "fun things" - more side projects, more YouTube videos, more personal stuff.

But at the same time, when I do those things, it feels like a disservice to my customers, the people that work for me, and to myself.

One thing that Harry reminded me is that I have this thing right now called time.

When I had my full-time job and was grinding on Starter Story, all I wanted was to own my own time.

Now I own my own time. I don't have a boss. I can do anything I want.

Yet, I'm taking that for granted now.

I have to remember all of the work that got me here. I don't have a fucking 9 to 5 job!

Now that I own my time, am I becoming lazy? Or maybe being lazy is the "next step" when you own your own time? 

Maybe being lazy and having less to do is what is supposed to happen?

But I don't want to be lazy. I want to achieve big things. So much more that I want to do.

Maybe I'm becoming complacent? I don't want to be complacent.

Harry had a great idea. Take a full day off. Recharge completely.

Do more of the things I "love" - or learn to "love" the things I don't, yet.

It's unlike me to ever feel this way - so I think it might be a fluke. Time heals all.