November 19th, 2020
Today, I “meditated”.

I put it in quotes because I don’t like that word too much. The word meditation comes with too many preconceived notions, like to “focus on your breath”, gurus, specific techniques, etc.

Common meditation advice says you shouldn’t think about anything, but I don’t like that because not thinking about anything is actually a thought itself.

Today, I just sat there and did nothing for 15 minutes. Just sat there. I let thoughts come to me, and I processed them.

And the craziest thing happened to me.

I had this one thought come to me: “I should share XYZ on Twitter”. It was a simple and typical thought for me. Nothing out of the ordinary.

But the crazy part: I actually visualized this thought enter and leave my mind. The timeline:

  1. I saw the thought enter my mind.
  2. I watched it become stronger and stronger
  3. It reached the center of my mind and hit a “peak” for a few seconds.
  4. Then, it slowly started getting weaker. 
  5. And then it faded away, and I was unable to bring it back!

I thought maybe I could pull it back. 

I tried to pull it back, but I couldn’t, no matter how hard I tried! 

I was in disbelief.

Once it was gone, my mind moved onto something else.

What happened? I fully processed a thought! It sounds so simple and obvious but it feels revolutionary right now!

I’ll do this again tomorrow, and I’m actually really looking forward to it. I guess this is mediation? This feels more fun.